This is an article written by (pseudonym) MicaSmith, on the website Jehovahs-Witness.com. It describes a hellish childhood, a sociopathic mother who is a member of the Jehovah's Witnesses cult, and the attitudes of mentally-controlled, self-styled Christians who praise this evil woman in their midst.
The Jehovah's Witnesses cult is extremely dangerous. My family and I were members for thirty years and were fortunate to awaken to that reality.
The links within the article don't work - it was all copied and pasted here. -Marina
Hello, I am new to forum. I want to thank you for allowing me to post my concerns.
You are a lively, intelligent, empathetic community. I have read many of your posts and comments.
I have two concerns that I would like to discuss here.
It is very important for persons to have a place to speak freely. I have not been to the Kingdom Hall
in over a year due to an illness linked to my experiences as a battered child. During this period,
I have also developed a fear of returning. The fear of being in the company of people who do not think for
themselves. I find that many witnesses do not embrace perspicacity they only refer to what's in the
JW magazines. If it isn't printed they don't want to reason on it. They don't take it seriously. I find
this way of functioning weary. I can't live without learning, reading, and applying information sensibly.
Throughout my life, from the age of seven (when I was thrown against a wall because of the way I walked),
I have suffered with debilitating somatic illnesses and neurological challenges. And while that episode at age 7,
was entirely terrifying it was not the worse attack but it is the one that haunts me. It often returns to
me clearly, announced, followed by many other episodes of similar violence. My brain is incapable of stopping
this flow memories and that makes life quite challenging. When the memories come they arrive with every
emotion I felt during those beatings. It took sometime to figure out what was happening to me, but in addition to
my brain challenges, those burst of intrusive memories among other symptoms have been classified as PTSD.
As my siblings and I grew from childhood to our teens, so did the beatings. The instruments and methods
used were carefully selected and the abuse was horrific, much of it was sadistic aggression. This is what
makes it so hard to forget. Trauma doesn't leave the body and brain after abuse, it stays. It lingers.
It takes up residence, as a result, physical pain is the result of painful memories. To add to this, all I have
ever gotten from fellow witnesses who try to pressure me into have a relationship with the person who
abused me is I should put "it" behind me because that person is a Jehovah witness and my mother.
They have ignored the damage done and the health burden I must carry indefinitely.
I have been told countless times by those who advocate for her, (believe it or not) that I should forgive
and forget because according to them, that's what I would want Jehovah to do for me if I had behaved
as she did. But in the bible God has never once forgiven anyone who did not show a thoroughly
remorseful spirit. When he told them they had to express true remorse, he was not talking about
impression management. They had to address the wronged party. They had to develop a spirit
of obedience which included doing all they could to correct or comfort the damaged person.
They could not use excuses to say why they did it, or present themselves as a victim.
They had to own up to their egregious actions. How could persons who go out and teach others the bible
not know this? How could they come up with excuses for the horrific acts of a mother?
How could they come to me, the injured party, to honor her? How can you honor a parent who has
more in common with the devil than with God? Would it not be prudent to protect yourself from that
being? Should you expose yourself to greater harm to please the misguided notions of others?
David went higher up in the mountains, harder to reach, after his peaceful meeting with Saul
because he knew Saul was bent on killing him. Many witnesses can recall and express scriptures
in a scholarly manner but they do not live them. Furthermore, they set common sense aside and
God gave us that too.
As a result they minimized my pain and hardship and focused entirely on a weary concept of forgiveness.
Not only has my mother, the devoted witness NOT expressed remorse, she is arrogant. She's is a skilled
manipulator having gained the much needed validation for her egotism to flourish. Not only will she never
apologize (something I can attest to after three decades of her absent empathy, guilt, conscience, or remorse),